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i'll be leavin for the courage center tommorow. i'll be all alone there without any friends, but hey.. what am i sayin? it's not like i have any friends here right now. at least i am familiar with people here though. well, bein alone is just a sacrifice that i'll have to take, i hope it pays off in the end. everyone says that i'll meet lots of new people when i'm there at least, so i'm pretty excited about that. i'll be surrounded by people whom are goin through the same thing as i am, but that can be awfully depressing at times. i see people at gillette hospital whom are around my age, with their neck messed up so that their necks are turned all strangely (their necks are even more messed up compared to mine, i can thank my chiropractor greatly for crackin my neck all those times) and they have drool hangin out of their mouth because that part of their brain is injured. i can check myself out anytime from the center though, but i'd have to be damn sure i wanna leave because i'd land myself back down the two year long waiting list. i had a hard enough time advancing on the waiting list, good thing one of my primary docs is pretty well respected and i think that his referral actually meant somethin. i've decided i don't wanna leave till i can walk (they have five days of physical therapy there), drive my honda civic, find a place to live by myself (i'm actually really quite independent), and until i can take care of myself as effeciently as before i was in the accident, so i'm prepared to stay there for a while. well, i think i'll go back to watchin meet the parents now.